Hope is important. Everyone needs it. Everyone has had it. Everyone has lost it. Everyone has found it. Everyone yearns for it. Hope. The definition of Hope is: 'to want something to happen or be true and think that it could happen or be true" - Merriam-Webster Dictionary. In other words Hope is Belief. You are hoping that something you desire for you life or in your life will happen, and you believe it will happen. There is a difference between a dream and a hope. A dream is something you hope could happen in the future. Dreams come true, but you need hope to get you there . If you aren't a believer and you have hope... well friend, you are believing in something. And let me tell you what that something is. That something is a big thing: It is God. Go marinate on that for a second.
Yesterday I personally was filled with Hope. In so many different ways, on so many different levels. Brother and I spent the day at the Children's Hospital of Philadelphia's Trisomy 21 Program's Clinic- Is that a mouth full or what?! It was a four hour appointment, where doctors, specialists, and therapists completely focused on Knox. They educated me on new techniques, they referred me to a new specialist, and they gave me unbiassed opinions and feedback on his therapies. This amazing team let me drive them crazy with questions, stories, and just me. We talked about poop, cheered on brother as he pointed at pictures, gave him a helpful and therapeutic massage (which I can share if anyone is interested), and they asked how I was doing. The level of care I have received at CHOP has been remarkable. I am so impressed with every doctor and nurse we have ever worked with there. A few days ago I was online and I saw their logo for the first time. Every time I leave CHOP I feel like I am doing everything I can to help my son have the best life possible. I am full of Hope. Hope Lives Here.
While Brother was away, Sissy Lu got to play. Okay most of you reading this know me, well I am assuming you do. But if you don't, here are a few things about me... I am guarded, don't ever like to ask for help, don't like to accept help, I am very slow to make close friendships, and like a lot of first time moms I have separation anxiety. The night before our appointment a sweet friend texted me and offered to watch Sissy Lu for the day. This mom of five who home schools and works in Children's Ministry at our church was going to do me a favor... at first I thought no way! If anyone needs a break it would be her!! The Pilot urged me and I knew in my heart that Sis would have so much more fun spending the day with this awesome family of seven. And guess what?! Sissy Lu had a a blast! I am so grateful they watched her for me, not only because of her enjoyment, but I finally let myself be vulnerable. I already feel so much closer to them. I go in these stages where I give up on trying to grow roots where I am. I don't always let friendships grow deeper because I know that we will move, and in the end I lose hope. Well yesterday showed me hope is mine to have. Hope Lives Here.
I ended yesterday at our church bible study. I cannot put into words how much Lifehouse Church has meant to me. They took care of us when we had the Twin Pack and were living the NICU life, they helped and encouraged me when the Pilot was deployed for eight months, they always help me to and from my car, they include me, they make me feel at home, they make me feel loved, and they are so of the best people I know. I have made some of my closest friends at church, which is a new experience for me. God is at work at Lifehouse, and I am honored to be a part of that. The pastor's wife is a wonderful speaker and she was speaking to the women about the Lord's Prayer (Matthew6:9-13). She was explaining each line and what really spoke to me was how big of a gift the Lord's Prayer truly is. Jesus himself is giving us his "prayer journal". It made me feel closer to him. The thing that gave me the most hope is when she said "God is for You". That seems crazy right? I mean I was created for Him, so how can He be for me? I get it. That is how much He loves us. He love us so much, He is all about us! He wants our hope to be placed in Him and He wants our dreams and desires to be fulfilled so that it will draw us closer. If you are searching for HOPE, I will tell you where to find it, it is in His word. I wait for the Lord, my whole being waits, and in his word I put my Hope. Psalm 130:5 Hope Lives Here.